Alisan Porter, the former actress who is best known for her starring role in 1991's "Curly Sue," admits she is a recovering alcoholic.
The 33-year-old former child star opened up Thursday about suffering from alcoholism and trying to lead a sober life in a lengthy blog post on her website, Lil' Mamas. In the post, the actress revealed that she hasn't touched a drink or a drug since Oct 28, 2007.
"Hi, I'm Ali, and I'm an alcoholic," Porter began her post. "Yup, bet you didn't see that one coming. Or, because you know that I'm a former child star, you totally did."
She continued to write that she felt "miserable and overwhelmed with life." At the time, Porter said she was living in New York when she realized she needed to get sober. "I was heartbroken and realizing that what had always worked for me in the past was NOT working at all. Not even a little bit."
"I felt trapped, scared, and sad and I was ready to really go for broke or get better," she continued. "So, I did what every good user does and I prayed to a god I had never believed in... and then called my mom. Days later I was off to treatment, just like that. For the next four years I went to meetings, worked the steps, got a sponsor, found a god of my own understanding, prayed, meditated and basically grew up."
She is now happily married to her boyfriend, Brian Autenrieth, and is the mother to 2-year-old Mason Blaise Autenrieth and Aria Sage, 4 months, according to the NY Daily News. Along with launching a mommy blog, the actress is also recording an album.
Porter joked that because she is a mother, she is allowed to drink wine, but admitted that she won't take the chance of messing up her current life.
"I don't drink because I don't want to miss one second of the responsibilities I get to have today," she wrote. "I don't drink because I can't. I want to, a lot of days, because I'm human and because life gets hard. Sobriety offered me everything I ever wanted and never got. I have always had the image in my head of rushing to put my kids to sleep, being so frustrated and angry. Rushing just so I could go disappear into a bottle or take a trip on clouds of smoke. When I think about that my skin crawls, because that's in me. Everyday I work to take contrary action against that poor unfortunate girl."
She concluded the post by reciting the sobriety prayer, "God grant me the serenity to accept the diapers I don't want to change, the courage to pump the milk I can, and the wisdom to do the dishes."
